BEST DAY OF MY LIFE IS TODAY
is for Lyndon and also my Family and Friends
you to Jesus and to God for being with me throughout all the days
of my life.
you to Kevin Lock for typing up my notes and for producing this
Copyright Ken Harris
First Published: January 2007
To fulfil God’s purpose in this life.
by Kenneth M Harris, Torquay, Devon, England.
printed by Kevin H Lock, Suite 3, 29 Morgan Avenue, Torquay, Devon.
TQ2 5RR. England.
rights reserved under international copyright law. The contents
and/or cover may not be reproduced in whole or in part in any
form without the express written consent of the publisher.
let me introduce myself
as this is my Autobiography:
I was born
in Torquay, Devon, at home with my mother, Anne, & my father,
Peter - i have two sisters, Shirley, & Pamela
us to be a Christian family. And, we love each other, & nurture
& support each other, & we all delight in each others
lives, &, indeed Celebrate our family life together.
I would like
to take this opportunity to thank God & his son, Jesus Christ
- for my loving family ; who i deeply love & i pray for God
blessing to sustain us , to protect our hearts & thoughts
, to love us & save us & inspire us into Gods very own
Will for each of our lives.
The chapters in this book include:
thirty-seven years of my life
through mental health
into my life
My first Dicky-Bow
My first girlfriends
Birthday in 2007
My Art, A
Book of Paintings
A Public Relationship
The Art of
songs - Talking, Lifes a Celebration
to be a Methodist Church Minister
As a Public Relations Individual
Willing.... for my hundred and third Birthday Party
that I am thirty seven
I have released
a Press Article that was published in the Herald Express newspaper
promoting the Abbey club day centre, & its manager, in Torquay.
I am currently
doing Public Relations work for a Singer/song writer – I
am arranging recording studio time & a video shoot for this
I am studying
Public Relations literature.
I am studying
computers: word processing, Internet,
I have worked
as a book salesman for the Book People in Devon, for two years.
I have worked
as a telephone salesman for Frank Manns in Torquay, for six months.
I have worked
as a Barman at the Snooty Fox pub in Torquay, for six months.
I have worked
as an Architectural Technician, for Baldock Benns & Heighway,
Architects, in Torquay, for four years.
I have worked,
collecting the Times newspaper for local distribution in Torquay
for six months.
I have an
A level in Art Painting & History
I have studied
A level English Language & Literature
I have seven
O levels, including English & Maths
I have a Higher
National Certificate, TEC, In Building Studies
I have a blue
belt in Aikido martial art
I have written
& sold copies my book called Festival Lovers. I have made
a video production of this story.
I have painted
numerous oil paintings: Portraits, & Landscapes: thirty paintings.
I have created
& recorded in recording studio three songs: Talking, Live
Days With You, & God Bless Lyndon
I have acted
in four amateur dramatic productions with Shiphay amateur dramatic
company in Torquay:
See How They Run, Celebration, Dick Whittington, Jack The Ripper
I spent five
years living & engaged to Julie, & am a father to her
son Lyndon, who is now fourteen years old. I am now single, &
see Lyndon a couple of times each week: we shoot Pool together
& walk, eat out, & go to the cinema etc.
I have done
numerous other jobs, including: Swimming pool Lifeguard, Hospital
Porter, Delivery Salesman, Grill chef in Macdonald’s, Gardener,
Refreshments assistant for League of Friends at Torbay Hospital
I am a Born
Again Christian & go to Central Methodist Church, in Torquay.
I have spent
much time canoeing, on the sea, surfing, & River Dart canoeing.
I took part in an expedition, from Plymouth to Torquay, which
took three days.
I like walking,
& am looking forward one day to walking in the Lake District.
I have spent
many hours Windsurfing.
I have a mountain
bike, & as a child used to cycle from Torquay to Haytor Rock.
I am a keen
I swim once
a week with my parents, & can do twenty metres in eighteen
seconds front crawl.
As a teenager
& in my early twenties I used to read a lot of Autobiographies
I have holidayed
to Italy with my family, for a week.
I have hitched-hiked
to London, numerous times, & to Paris, with my sister.
I have been
to Glastonbury Festival, with my boy, &
I am interested
in Space Aviation.
I have had
My best friend
I went to
St Margaret’s primary school. Then went on to Westlands
I had a fight
in the playground with Garri, John said I got in the best punches,
Garri got me in a headlock; the fight was broken up by the P.E.
practicing Aikido martial art when I was about fifteen. Science,
Ken was the teacher. I also learnt Aikido with Eric, then John,
& now Danny.
Me Garri, & Lawrence went regularly to Starbase disco, on
Saturdays. At Castle Circus, Torquay. There I met my first girlfriend
called Donna. Donna & I would meet at the weekends in Paignton.
I had my first kiss at Starbase, when I was fourteen.
My first encounter
was when I was eighteen in a school porch. Then I met with Philis
at my parent’s house when I was nineteen.
I was born
in Torquay, at my parents house, Torquay. I have two older sisters.
My mum is
an artist, & my dad is a trained carpenter who can turn his
hand to anything.
I have read
books: Mahatma Gandhi; Elenor Roosevelt; Theodore Roosevelt, Clementine
Churchill; Portrait of a Marriage – about Vita Sackville-west
& Harold Nicholson; The Monument; Success Through A Positive
Mental Attitude, by Napoleon Hill & W. Clement-stone; Think
& Grow Rich, by Napoleon Hill; Tao, The water Course Way,
by Alan Watts; Right With God, by John Blanchard; The Worlds Greatest
I have studied
Shakespeare with the Open University, a third level Degree unit.
I have read: Richard 11; Cleopatra; Hamlet; Henry the Fourth,
part one & two; & others.
I have a very
good friend called: Alan, another called Tim, I have in the last
two years made a very good friend called: Kevin.
I have since
becoming a Born Again Christian at age thirty, been going to church
every Sunday, & I go to a Healing prayer group on Tuesday.
I like the Ministers: Brian, Jeff & Peter.
My dad is
called: Peter; my mother is called Anne.
is called Lyndon. I was reading a biography about Lyndon Johnson,
the American President that is how I chose Lyndon’s name.
I worked at
Baldock Benns & Heighway Architects. Paul was a great inspiration
to me – in his example I follow, I have great esteem for
Paul. Other colleagues include Peter, Alan, Dave and Mark.
my first proper Love. She is the first girl that I had a full
relationship with. I had other girlfriends before Julie, but not
in the fullest way. Julie & I met at the Hideaway nightclub,
I was with my friends: Garri & Alan; Julie was with her friends
Becky, & Rose. I took Julie home.
My dad purchased
a car for me when I was nineteen – a Vauxhal Viva. I had
passed my driving test on the second attempt. I was supposed to
pay my dad back. But I needed the money for beer.
I worked for
Julie’s dad Nigel in Torquay.
Me & my
friends used to go to Lasers nightclub; Four hundred nightclub.
I had a girl
friend called: Kym. Kym lived in Brixham, my friend Garri went
out with Lucy. We all used to meet every weekend, & hang out
together. I had a Swedish girl friend called: Lill-ruth.
I had a German girl friend called: Henryetta.
Simon, & Mike made ourselves fibreglass canoes.
One of the
high points of my life is when I played a German, disguised as
a vicar, in a stage production called: See How They Run.
the memories of bringing Lyndon up as a baby.
I was in the Hospital waiting room when Lyndon was born. Julie
let me believe that Lyndon was my natural son. But when Lyndon
was six months old, I had a DNA bloodiest done, through my G.P.
Doctor Nicholas & it was shown that I am not Lyndons biological
But I was so deeply in love with Julie & Lyndon that we stayed
together. I met two other women when I found that Lyndon was not
my son. But I loved Juie & Lyndon, so went back to Julie.
Julie & I then got engaged to each other. This engagement
lasted for about four years. I used to change Lyndons nappy. I
used to feed Lyndon. Lyndon was a very happy & healthy baby.
I believe that Julie & I gave Lyndon a lot of love –
which is so important in the early years of a baby’s life.
Building Studies at South Devon College. My friends there were:
Steven, Sean, Guy and others. Keith was a mentor for me, as was
Mike. We had some fun on the course, but really I would have preferred
studying something where we could meet more women.
Now I want
to work in Public Relations. This is because I like to meet people,
& I like to talk with people – I like a good chat, &
it is an industry where I can imagine that I will meet as many
women as men, which is what I like.
Building is boring because it is all men – I want to meet
women; this does not mean that I want to get off with them all
though, I just like being with them.
is Feb 27th, I am a Pisces, birth sign.
When I was
young I went to the Riviera boxing club with Derek, Paul, &
Steven. Dad would not let me go competitive in the ring because
of head injuries, but I used to train with them; running etc.
I had two
street friends called Andrew & Julian. We used to go to Sunday
school and youth club together.
was young I took him each week to Sunday school. Lyndon now goes
to secondary school.
I did a Portrait
of Lyndon with a Xylophone, when he was two years old, in oil
paint. I have painted some portraits of Julie.
& Lyndon lived for five years at Parkfield road, Upton, Torquay.
I made a great
friend out of Kay. We went out with each other for ten months.
I used to go nightclubbing separately & sometimes together.
At Christmas we went in fancy dress, one time as pirates, another
time as American footballers.
Julie & I had quite as stormy relationship, when we first
moved into Parkfield road. I was paying the rent & the food
& for the baby, I could afford it because I had two jobs –
architects during the day & Johnson’s newspapers at
night. I was able to provide wine on the meal table & meals
out in restaurants etc, I was on eleven thousand a year.
I nearly killed myself, driving at night, I had two jobs &
Julie & I did not miss out, so I wasn’t getting much
sleep, I nearly fell asleep in the transit van, - I believe that
Jesus & God saved my life.
When I found that Lyndon was not my son – all things changed
– I got the sack from my architectural job for taking two
months off without notice; I left it to Julie to work out how
she & Lyndon would get by – she claimed benefit –
I unwittingly lost all my rights over the flat – which was
a big reason why I had a breakdown.
to follow my own interests, I wanted to do English theatre, art,
music, & all the arty farty things I romanticised about. I
did get a certain amount of success in my new aspirations. I began
writing my novelette, which was first entitled Elusive Life. I
read about Tony Hancock, I began to become unwell from the age
of twenty-two, I began to become desperate.
I worked with
Mark, selling books; I spent much money on photocopying, photographs,
etc. connected to my writing endeavours. I spent much time on
my own – I seemed…
A level English language & literature, A level painting &
History & Higher National Certificate in Building, at the
same time I worked for Frank Manns as a driver delivery person,
I went to Dartmouth, Tavistock, Barnstable, Torquay, starting
at about four am & working till about one pm.
I would cook cottage pie on a Friday, I paid generally for all
our food & bills & I don’t know what Julie did with
her benefit money.
Because I had lost rights over our flat, when Julie & me would
fight, she had the power to throw me out.
Me & Kay
had a lot of fun together. We would listen to Alanis Morissette.
We danced round the flat together. Kay and I went out with each
other for ten months. We saw each other everyday. We have remained
good friends. I did an oil painting of Kay, & I also did an
oil painting of her friend Tanya, who lives in Shaldon.
I used to
go to the monastery night club/rave club, in Torwood Street down
by the harbour. Julie would also go to the monastery & we
often saw each other there. I used to sport a bendy Tobacco pipe,
& a baseball cap, the club was open till seven am. - We used
to stay the whole time dancing. I once pretended to smoke cannabis
– I will tell you about this later.
I had a flat at Sharon House, Sanford road, Chelston – it
was a lovely flat. I kept it really nice and bought some potted
plants and watered them etc… I only kept the flat for a
short while and then moved on.
out two injunctions against me, I asked Julie to marry me on three
occasions. I sent Julie some flowers to Lyndon’s School.
Julie’s boyfriend Steve hit me twice with a baseball bat
that was my bat. – I went to hospital; I thought he had
broken my arm.
I had a top
flat in number three, Wellesley road, in Ellacombe.
I had a flat at, number twenty five, Castle road.
I have lived
in a hostel called Parkview, Castle Road on two occasions.
I was homeless
for two weeks. The Police have arrested me on two occasions. I
once broke into the Tormohun hotel, on Newton Road.
& Lyndon, hitchhiked to Glastonbury festival. I went to Glastonbury
festival with Mark.
is now called: Festival Lovers. I have got seventy rejection letters
from publishers. I have sold one book in the Book fair bookshop.
has been a very good friend to me and has also helped me to have
contact with Lyndon.
hire a car; I took Lyndon to Dartmouth in a hired car.
& I went to Double Locks Hotel, for the May Day celebration.
Me & Julie had a very good life throughout our relationship.
I was attracted
to Julie, also because she comes from a family of women –
no men about, Patricia, Genevieve, & Sarah.
I helped Patricia cultivate her garden, in the early stages when
I was becoming ill.
I like the Rolling stones, Mick Jagger, & Jimi Hendrix. Me
& Kay used to dance together listening to Alanis Morisette.
I had a girlfriend called Michelle; I had a white South African
girlfriend called Kate.
I had an exhibition, with a guy called Mr Green, at Fleet walk
in Torquay – I displayed six prints, & sold one.
My song, called: Talking has been played on Torbay Hospital radio.
I have been up in a glider, I have been up the Eiffel tower, I
have touched a Van Gogh painting in the Tate Gallery in London.
I have slept in the most prestigious & expensive place in
Paris for nothing – under the Eiffel Tower. I stayed with
Mark in London. I stayed with Genevieve in London.
I lived at
Sue’s House, Beenland Place East Street, Torquay. For three
years, I went to Butlins.
I took Lyndon
to the cinema: Jurassic Park, The Mask, Lion King, Beauty &
The Beast, Triple `X`, Starsky and Hutch, Flintstones.
Me & Angie
went to see American Beauty and dated for four months. We used
to cycle together.
Gennette gave me a very large Valentines card.
I worked as a dishwasher in Hoopers. I worked as a gardener at
Meadfoot for Mike.
I did a portrait
of Genevieve & Sarah; I did a landscape of Parkfield Road.
I did a landscape of Tessier Garden. John the Welsh Artist was
my tutor at college.
I sold Christmas
cards from my own initiative.
I did a Boxing
Day dip, & was in the newspaper because of it.
I did the
Bob Geldof Live Aid Run from Paignton to Torquay & back, with
Steven, Tim & James.
I won the
best canoeists award, & came third in a kayak race & won
I went to parent craft classes. I had an Eighteenth birthday party
at the Falkland hotel in Torquay. – I hired a
kissogram for Andy’s party.
Me & Julie
dined at the Casino. – Julie booked us into a Brixham hotel
for Valentines Day.
I have been on the London Underground, & the Paris Metro.
I bought a washing machine, cooker and fridge. I used to take
Lyndon to the swing park.
Lyndon, Pat & I went to Brixham on the ferry.
I did a portrait of a female care worker called Kerry.
I once tied
Steven to a ladder, where he wet himself. Andrew, Julian &
I used to play with their vast amount of Lego.
I made a teabag
pot & a chessboard table in woodwork. I used to help Alan
with his woodwork homework.
I read Zen & the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, recommended
I have given
two hundred copies of my book away.
I went to
Julie’s bed-sit in Warren road & we talked.
Me & Julie
used to fight, but I was in love with her & I believe she
loved me too.
I made up
Talking on the piano; I developed it from some chords I learnt
on O level music.
My whole family
have been keen windsurfers.
I hold Sylvia
& Pam in high regard for their youth work & Sunday school
- & Steven – we had some lovely days out, walks etc.
I used to
run around the golf club, with Brian.
I have got
published two poems – I’ve been in love, I can tell
a love story, & A Poem About Smarties. By United Press.
I have read
books: Ian Robert Maxwell, a biography. Arthur Miller, Jude the
Obscure, The Rivals, by Richard Sheridan. Piccasso, The Importance
of Being Earnest, by Oscar Wild, Martin Luther King, Aikido &
The Dynamic Sphere, The Art of Peace by Moriehe Ueshiba. It’s
a Great Life. The Moons a Balloon by David Niven. Errol Flynn.
real dad may be a guy called Neil who lives in Nottingham –
but this has not yet been proven. I wrote to Lyndon’s dad
& told him he had a son.
I was a Rude
Boy, in my teens, & then a New Romantic – I drink Bitter
We used to
go to Monroe’s night-club; the Castle pub, at Castle circus;
The Hop-n-Grapes, the Mousetrap etc. I used to Meet Henrietta
at lunch times, & we used to go to the Hideaway together.
She helped me with my homework. I made a balsa wood glider &
flew it once.
I got thrown
out of Valbonnes, for punching Adrian, because he comes on to
Julie.- I have been thrown out of Snobs, for fooling around. –
I was asked to leave Chaplin’s by a barman. I reversed my
car into an oncoming lorry – the police driving a Mazda
stopped me at 92 miles an hour.
I had relations with Tracey in Lasers.
I met a Filipino girl on numerous times.
I have sung Karaoke, & was thrown beer mats at me
I had a girl friend called Mellanney at the 400 club.
Me & My family we camping at Bournemouth together –
I’ve been to Blackpool
Me & Hayden
Hitchhiked to Brighton & stayed with his sister Helen. I’ve
been to an Architecture exhibition in London. – I’ve
seen the Mona Lisa, in Paris.
I like the
Darling Budds of May, with David Jason because it is so happy.
As a child I used to go to Torre-abbey sands in the summer.
I used to keep a journal, but scrapped it. I read a bit of the
Bible every day as a rule in recent years.
I went with a girl called Mandy, but we didn’t have sex.
I knew a girl called Louise – she went to Westland’s
I met Vicky
at Ritzies nightclub an met with Debbie, Kate, Lisa, Madeline,
Delma, Tina, Janice, Jackie, and Sarah.
Me & Mark
danced all night & morning at Glastonbury festival. We went
by train, & used my two man tent – we saw the great
Jewels Holland, Stereophonics, Rolf Harris & others.
I do love
Me & Andrew
& Julian used to wrestle each other. I used to wrestle with
the Halls boys on the moors. We used to go to the moors, the whole
family at the weekends. I had a friend called Anna-Marie who used
to live in Dawlish – she was a good kisser, she wanted to
join the Police.
I used to
belong to Torquay Leander swimming club & used to lane train
I had a friend
named Fred. I got caught with Mark for stealing from St Margaret’s
school. I can do Ballroom dancing.
used to get together at Christmas with my grand parents, Norman,
Helen, Winniefred, & Les. I used to ride my skateboard &
I worked at
the post-office – sorting office at Christmas. I worked
making coffee in a café at St. Marychurch. I was a shelf-filler
at international. I had a Sunday paper-round.
I saw a production
of The Canterbury tales at college, I love the Canterbury tales.
We have had a family holiday at Centre Parc's. I have two blood
uncles & one auntie.- I have a nephew. I spent some weeks
studying philosophy at college. I had a girlfriend called: Camilla.
For some two weeks. – I had a girlfriend called Nikki for
I have lived
in Launston for a month. I have read some love poetry: Thomas
Hardy. I worked in the BBH Dartmouth office for three months.
I took Lyndon
to the faire & one the Go-karts, to Cockington & on a
A girl at school called Mary tattooed my name on her arm –
she used to fancy me.
& Mark used to hang out with some Grammar school girls called:
Anne, Liz, Sam & others, we went to some parties. Garri used
to buy me beer. I read the Times newspaper.
I used to tease my cousin: Michael, especially on Halloween. The
family used to play Newmarket.
I have read
Jimi Saviles autobiography called: As It Happens, Jimi is such
a wonderful man – dear God – bless Jimi Savile
Dear God: bless my family & friends – people I know,
& people I don’t know – amen.
Jimi Savile has a wonderful talent of expression, he seems so
healthy, and he makes me think of love & good will. His autobiography
is so lovely & easy to read.
I have read David Jasons autobiography, also Tommy Cooper, I have
read about Eric Morecombe, I have read a little about Bertram
Russel. I have read Elia Kazans autobiography. The first book
I read as a child was: Stig Of The Dump. But I have read the Peter
& Jane Books, & the Pirate books:Gregory the Green, &
red, & Blue etc. I pray to God for all good things for Lyndon.
I met in June 1988; Lyndon was born on my birthday: February 27th,
1989. Julie lived with me at my parent’s house during her
pregnancy and then in Jan 89 we moved into Parkfield road. Julie
& I met in June 1988;
I have created
three songs: Live days with me, Talking, & God Bless Lyndon.
Sarah & Me are making a compilation C.D. of our songs –
on the same C.D.
& me go on holiday at Centre Parcs, at the New Forest, longleat,
each year, we have good fun together.
I have circulated
my short story: Festival Lovers, all round Torquay, with a poster
advertising my book for sale in all the newsagents & other
shops, including the Pavilions.
I have sold
a few copies of my book.
I like Aikido,
Which was founded by Moriehie Ueshiba; another name for Aikido
is: The Art Of Peace - isn’t it wonderful! I practice only
once a week at present, at Newton Abbot. I think it is such a
wholesome & healthy thing to practice, & that it is such
a valuable skill to have, & for keeping the peace, & avoiding
injury to oneself & others.
I met Gina. We have enjoyed a good friendship now for seven months.
I have a voluntary job with a charity called “Vocal”
– I help clients with advocacy skills.
I want to develop a career and vocations as a “Public Relations”
The best day
of my life is not the day I get married, the best day of my life
is the day that I asked Jesus into my life – age thirty.
I am interested
in mans aspirations in space aviation. I think this is exciting.
I have read
two books written about and with the wonderful Mother Theresa
I have read:
The Lions Children’s Bible by Pat Alexander and Carolyn
Cox – I am reading it for the twenty second time.
I have recorded twenty four songs including “Talking”
– which I wrote, sing and play the piano to. Kevin put the
music to “Life’s a Celebration”.
I have written
two musical plays called:
(mutation) and The Art of Peace
I have attended
the “Vocal” – Citizens Advocacy course in Paignton
and I have been awarded the “Vocal” certificate of
Achievement and help clients with advocacy etc…
I have spent
sixteen years creating a novelette which I have titled: Festival
includes thoughts about God; Aikido Martial Art; The Philosophy
of Success; the “Tao” Chinese philosophy; Music Festivals
such as the Glastonbury Festival and thoughts about outer-space
and mans future in outer-space.
Me and Kevin
made a (DVD) Video Jackanory style out of Festival Lovers in front
of the Riviera Centre in Torquay. Also we made an Audio recording
on C.D. which lasts fifty minutes.
of “Tessier Garden” has been chosen for the cover
of the Torbay Mental Health Information Directory which is now
Open up the
My biggest single achievement in my life so far, I believe, is
my novelette: Festival Lovers - (develop this)
my work at BBH:
I did surveying
and drawings for houses, factories, extensions, barn-conversions
etc… Existing plans from surveys, feasibility and development
drawings, planning drawings, building regs drawings and detailing
my other jobs.
Why I like
Aikido etc… and explain Aikido etc…
my paintings, songs, dramatics and musical plays etc…
star base, meeting and dating. Donna and Rachel – mention
the long line of girls that asked me and Garri out etc…
I used to read the “Times” and the “Telegraph”.
Garri, Alan and others went out every week to Lasers, Thursday,
Saturday and Sunday.
Michelle from Torquay was my girlfriend who I took home etc…
First in sea on Boxing Day dip and photo
photos like Jimi Saville did.
- Mention Teddy-Boy in banana suite in “Celebration”
- Talk about: “See How They Run”
- Talk about getting engaged to Becky who is eighteen?
- Mention how I like Hardy`s love poems and that I have seen Hamlet
at Theatre Royal in Plymouth.
my delight in: The Rivals and Importance of Being Earnest.
rehearsing with Toads – but babysitting Lyndon stopped it.
Auction of Crosby Lodge and my interest in it?
a Great Life by John Eddison, Journey into Life by Norman Warren,
Right with God by John Blanchard.
- Talk about
my paintings! Mention Julie portrait in purple and Aikido paintings
at Double Locks etc… - Sketch of Genevieve.
- Describe Glastonbury festival – on the train with Julie,
Lyndon, Stuart and Mark – dancing all night etc…
- Talk about getting Festival Lovers publishing myself. Copyprinted
by Richard, in Torquay and 250 copies given away and attempts
to get publicity.
- Going to London with Gina and Dartmouth, Brixham, Totnes etc…
Exeter – we had a full relationship for five months
- Practicing with Exeter Aikido club with James etc…
- Girlfriend Debbie had skin-head and Gina had tattoos
- I drink bitter shandy – favourite T.V. program is Darling
Budds of May, Benny Hill, Morcambe and Wise and the Two Ronnie’s
- Promoted Torbay Voluntary Bureau (with Rita?)
- Jo Public, name, and promotional leaflet of mine. Include my
two poems – Include prologue of Festival Lovers and the
Getting British library copyright protection on Festival Lovers.
solicitors Torquay for copyright.
- I love Madonna
“Holiday”, “Crazy for You”
- Aspirations for Festival Lovers, Plays and songs.
- My favourite Bible story is King David.
- Favourite meal at the pub is – Ham Ploughman’s
- Favourite activity is walking in Torquay Town Centre on a sunny
day in shorts and T-Shirt etc…
- Recorded in Applestone music shop studio with Phil and just
off Abbey Road studio – Trident with Malcolm and Tim.
- Video with Lionel and Kevin, Audio with Kevin.
- Role models – Mick Jagger, Robert Prig, Pablo Picasso,
Winston Churchill and King David and of coarse my Dad.
- Getting a glass thrown at me in the Hideaway and getting thrown
out and asking Hayden for a fight.
- Girlfriend Helen, now in Canada with child.
- Getting a glass thrown at me in Monroe’s Gay Club while
in a suit and smoking a bendy pipe.
- I love my family parents and sisters – secure sheltered
family life – love etc…
- Fears about catching S.T.I.`s; H.I.V. and A.I.D.S. etc…
and my family and friends and young people.
The most profound
and poetical epitaph I ever came across
Was Jimi Hendrix when he said “Scus me while I kiss the
club – stripper night, rubbing cream into her breasts.
School – rolling around on the grass – the wonderful
smell of freshly cut grass.
I made a transistor
radio and an electric motor from guidebooks – They worked!
- First book
I ever remember reading: Stig of the Dump
- Favourite films: Back to the Future; The Mask
I made paintings into gift cards and give and sell them with envelopes.
Favourite songs Spirit in the Sky; Lovely Day by Bill Withers
and I’m in Love by Donna Summer.
- I read a book called: An Introduction to Law
- I have designed a Public Building as a college project.
- I have written a novelette titled: Festival Lovers, I have made
a DVD jack-annory style of this book, with Kevin Lock
- I am writing two more novelettes: A Public Relationship and
The House of Books
- I am writing two musical videos which I wish to create: Sex
Trans and The Art of Peace
- I have recorded forty songs, including: Talking, Life’s
A Celebration, God Bless Lyndon and Into Your Eyes
- I had a five month relationship with Gina. We went to London
- I sold an original of my paintings – Lover’s Sun
Alter at Tessier Garden, Torquay for one hundred pounds.
- I have distributed on hundred prints of my thirty paintings
Journey through Mental Health
Service User Advocacy
Well, I was
a very unstable teenager - as indeed, most of us are, if we are
truthful. And I think this volatility prepared the ground for
my Breakdown and mental Health problems.
From the age
of eighteen to twenty-two, I worked for an architect, in Torquay,
as an Architectural technician.
at the age of twenty-one, I met Julie. I immediately feel in love
with Julie. I can confess that I feel deeply in love with Julie.
She was everything I could ever wish for in a woman. She was attractive,
and had a strong personality.
myself immediately formed a relationship with each other. In no
time at all, I said to Julie “If you want my baby, you can
weeks later Julie came back to me & said:
"Im pregnant". Julie lead me to believe, that the baby
Myself moved into a flat together, & prepared to make a family
told me she was having my baby. It was the best feeling i have
ever had in my life. Julie was offering me everything, everything
i could dream of. Herself, the woman i loved, deeply, & a
To pay for
my new family, i worked day & night. I worked in the architects
during the day, & worked for a newspaper wholesaler at night
- collecting newspapers from exeter, for distribution in Torbay.
When the baby
was six months old, i became suspicious of my fathership, because
of something somebody said.
So i insisted on a blood "DNA", test. The result was
: I was not infact the true biological father.
everything. Suddenly i was experiencing, The Bereavement of my
own baby. And Julie gave me another mans baby.
was Julie my woman, She belonged to another man, with the baby
of another man.
I lost everything.
I lost the woman i thought was mine, & i lost the baby i thought
Any way. I
still loved Julie & could not desert the baby, as i was the
only father around. So we lived together for five years.
But i gave
up my jobs, i thought that this was not my family, so why should
i work to provide for it. Julie then claimed benefits for her
& the child.
I went all
"Arty-farty", i studied A level english & art, o
level music, Shakspeare with open university. I acted in four
local amateur dramatic productions etc.
to paint, I started to write a novelette, & songs, etc.I practiced
Aikido Martial Art.
I worked for
fruit & Veg wholesalers, etc. Then i worked selling books.
It has been
suggested to me, that, this event is what triggered off my breakdown.
Over the five years we lived together , i believe this relationships,
is what destroyed my mental health.
to become very stressed out by everything, & emotionally,
i was distressed all the time. I became Manic, I was on the Go
all the time - writting , painting, working, keeping late nights
But i loved
the baby, changed nappies, etc & fed him.
So i had nine
months of counselling, - but got worse & worse.
At age twenty-six,
i admitted myself into the psychiatric ward of Torbay Hospital.
They put me on a section. & administered to me medication.
diagnosed me as suffering from stress, but i feared, & it
was eventually proved true that my problems were more serious
my acquired "Mental Health"(illness) status, Julie finished
our relationship, taking her child with her.
So i lost
the two people i loved most in the world. This loss i believe
is the reason of my subsequent depression. I was diagnosed with
Manic Depression, BI-Polar disorder, at the age of twenty-eight.
could not cope with my depression. So i went to live in a hostel,
for people with mental health problems for ten months.
I am now thirty-nine
years old. I have spent a total of eighteen months in hospital.
my psychiatrist, & they said they could no longer see any
signs of mental illness. So I did cold-turkey, against their advice
& refused to take medication.
later, I kept getting arrested by the police, for various inappropriate
behaviour , including breach of the peace. I can relate this to
you if you wish, i had alot of fun in this way with the Police.
at age twenty-nine, i was admitted into hospital, on a section,
lasting nine months.
I became very
very ill. I have been put onto various, & many different types
of medication, etc.
From the age
of thirty, to age thirty five: i was deeply depressed. I was deeply,
deeply depressed & troubled, all the time.
point in my life came on my thirtieth birthday, when i was locked
up in the secure, extra care unit in the psychiatric ward of Torbay
I found a
book, called "Right with God", by John, Blanchard. The
book introduces the non-Christian to Christianity, as if for the
very first time.
the book, I asked Jesus Christ into my life.
very moment, I received a vision about my mental health - that
my mental health was to improve from that very moment onwards.
Also I had a vision, and was inspired about what I want to do
with the rest of my life, including, becoming a Public Relations
Individual, & writing a book, etc…
The Best day
of my life is: The day that I asked Jesus into my life.
From age thirty
i started to attend church. I was put on their prayer list, &
since then they have been praying for my recovery.
that now inspires me, i believe has come to me from God, I believe
it is God inspired.
I lived in
two different hostels, for nine years.
Now , Nine
years later, I am feeling much, better, & am getting on with
I have moved
out of care, am in a flat on my own. I have written that book
. I have published my book: "Festival Lovers", also
Published a book: My Art, a book of fourty of my own paintings.
And have produced fourty songs onto C.D. also i am working on
various other writting projects.
I have six
voluntary jobs, : including: Leading a christian talk group, Oxfam
shop worker, Links, coalition of disabled people, vocal citisens
advocacy, & this : Menatal Health Service User advocacy.
I am on a
fraction of the medication i was once on. When i was on the full
dosage, i experienced very distressing emotions, & feelings
& thoughts. During my illnes i have been very distressed &
experienced much fear - am i dangerous? etc.
I can tell
you the names of all the different types of medication that i
have been on.
But the consultant
Psychiatrists that have doctored me have all been very good :
I realised that i had to take good advice, & take the medication
etc advised. I have been nursed by very good nurses at hospital
& care workers, etc. I have had much help from the community
psychiatric team at Waverley House.
I have had
cognitive therappy, etc. I have seen a comunity psychiatric nurse
once a week throughout my journey through mental health.
God is inspiring,
& blessing my life. And i am looking forward, with joy in
my heart tor the future.
Service User Advocacy
Well, anyway - when I learnt that Lyndon was not my son, we stayed
in our relationship, together. But over the next five years, until
the age of 26, it put my head in a spin. One minute I counted
myself blessed: because I had been given a son - which was not
even mine: what an honour! At other times, I felt that I was the
'fall-guy' taking on another mans son - I was the 'soft-touch'.
I lost my self respect by allowing this to happen and seemingly
I am a man
and this incident destroyed my sense of being a man. It is a very
sexual thing to father a child and to accept another mans child
in this 'deceived' way destroyed my sense of being a man.
my sexual identity and this is what eventually destroyed my mental
My head was
put in a spin: was I being blessed or being abused. Was Julie
taking the piss out of me? In hindsight it was as if it didn’t
matter to her anyway.
When I started
having counselling at Waverley house in the beginning. I was prescribed
to take: Sulpiride - to help me. But I rejected medication, because
I didn’t in fact believe in taking tablets.
I became more
and more desperate as the weeks went on. I was crying all the
time. I was constantly, many times a day, phoning my mum and Pat,
in desperation because I needed their support. I was crying all
with Julie: my sex life deteriorated because I hated myself for
staying with Julie after what she had done. I lost my sexual self
respect. I became perverted and self destructive in bed, I became
self abusive with unhealthy sexual fantasies, which destroyed
my self respect. I did not respect myself, so went in a self destructive
path. (I haven’t explained this very well).
At age 26,
i went into hospital. Because i did not co-operate with the doctors,
they put my on a six month section, & forced me to take Sulpiride
At age twenty
eight, i was put on lithium tablets, for bi-polar dissorder.
At age thirty,
by consultant psychiatrist, i was put on
Clo-pixol injection : Zuclinthinpixol.& Olanzipine tablets.
It is at this point: age thirty - that was the turning point for
me. It is at this point that my mental health began at long last
to improve. Its all down to God, & good Doctoring - which
is also a blessing from God.
psychiatrist, found me a hostel in Launston, cornwall. thinking
i should make a fresh start. But i ran away & came back to
torquay : because this is where my life is. Then i lived in a
hostel Surryhaven for three years.
the most important, & useful practice in aiding & recovering
from mental health problems - i believe. I have had a massive
amount of councelling in my journey through my mental health problems.
suicide on one occassion, in Hospital. I tryed to electrocute
myself with a wall socket & a knife & falk.I think that
God here saved my life, & saved my from injury such as burning
I have xperienced
through my illness difficulties with what is called: Intrusive
thoughts. These thoughts seriously inhibited my life & relationships
for five & more years, from age thirty onwards.
I have been
arrested about four times. I have been held in Police custody,
at torquay police station more than once.
I broke into a hotel. I had a three course meal in a restaurant,
all the time knowing that i had no money to pay.
out two injunctions against me to keep me away from here. one
for six months, & then for a year. I asked Julie to marry
me on three occassions.
my, attention to Julie, Julies boyfriend hit me twice with a baseball
from Torbay hospital AWAL. on numerous occassions.
I was High-as-a-kite,
while on lithium for two years.
I have lived
a Parkview hostel - & been high & manic, nearly all the
time, my nuse said i was out of control.
I got thrown out of parkview for refusing to accept & take
I was homeless
for two weeks : eventually getting bed & breakfast, then &
It is due
to God. It is due to the Psychiatrists. It is due to the nurses.
It is due to care-staff. which is the reason i am feeling so much
I have been
taken off my clo-pixol injection now. Which is a massive mile-stone
for me. I was once on 350 dosage a week.
long years in care. I am now living in a self contained flat on
my own - now for nine months.
I am interested
in a career & vocation as a 'public relations' individual.
& have six voluntary jobs, all of which are in areas i wish
to develop as a public relations individual.
I am now thirty-nine
a 'Vision' for my future.
My Journey Through Mental Health
Interview with Janet – Nov 2004
blame my illness on anybody, but I was living with this girl –
she had a baby and she told me the baby was mine .. I registered
him with my surname and a few months down the line I had a blood
test and found out the baby wasn’t mine. So THAT, I believe
from what people have said to me, was probably the trigger for
my mental illness … although I was very vulnerable as a
child anyway, I came from a good home, but I was vulnerable because
of different things that had happened in my childhood which made
me susceptible to this trigger – I was what you call an
unstable teenager, I wasn’t mentally ill but I was very
unstable. If I’d left the girl and the baby when I found
out it wasn’t mine, I’d probably have avoided having
the whole breakdown anyway, unless I was going to have a breakdown,
I don’t know … but because I stayed with them, because
I loved them, what it did it actually destroyed the way I felt
as a man, because it was another man’s baby, I felt like
the soft touch
over the years - we stayed together five years – it totally
destroyed me .. I started to self-abuse, I lost my self-respect,
I just completely went down the tubes … but along with that,
I was trying to do a lot of writing, a lot of artistic stuff,
so I’m wondering how much of it to blame on the relationship
and how much of it was to blame on my struggling to write my book,
which I’ve done
a friend of mine told me to go to the GP, and he said I was suffering
from hypermania, he referred me to a counsellor at [CMHT], and
I had nine months of counselling there, and instead of things
improving, they got worse and worse and worse – I assumed
the counselling would enable me to sort through my problems and
that I’d make a recovery, but every time I left the counselling
session, I was feeling worse!
I had nine months of counselling, I was holding down jobs and
I was still living with the girl and my stepson … but I
was getting really distressed, I was losing it, my mind was all
over the place, and racing all the time, so I thought I need more
counselling than this, I need to be taken apart and put back together
again, so I thought I’d admit myself to hospital, so I went
up to the hospital myself and admitted myself – they wouldn’t
take me initially, but I convinced them that I had to come in
[…] they had a bit of history on me anyway, cause of the
nine months of counselling, I’d seen [consultant A] at [CMHT]
once and he said ‘I don’t think you need to come in’,
I’d already talked it over, but then I decided ‘I
need to come in’, I was working at [X] and one night I couldn’t
catch up on my sleep, I was in a right mess, I thought ‘you
need to go in now while you still got your life together’,
cause if I go in as a person who’s got a life, they’ll
respect me, they’ll listen to me, but if I lose my whole
lifestyle, then go in as a tramp they’re going to think
‘well, he’s just a tramp anyway, so what does it matter?’,
so I went in, I wasn’t looking for medication – I
don’t know if this is true, it might not be true, but in
a way I believe that I could have probably got through my problems
without medication, all I wanted to do was to talk about things,
but the state of the art of mental health, the way they’re
structured, they say ‘right, medication, this is how we
deal with you’, and then they broke me down, they said to
me ‘you’re mentally ill’ - I think it’s
part of the process of being conditioned, I had to admit, I had
to say back to the doctor, ‘I’m mentally ill’,
so that got me into the frame of mind of thinking ‘now I’m
mentally ill’, they forced me to go onto sulperide, a major
tranquilliser, I spent three months in hospital on section three,
they lifted it afterwards […] they gave me the option, they
said ‘will you stay voluntary’ and I said ‘look,
I might leave tomorrow’, I didn’t think I needed to
be there really, I just needed time out to be able to talk over
my difficulties – they haven’t got the time to talk
to you, so this is how they deal with you .. so they put me on
a section for three months, then at Xmas I went back to the woman
and her son, but I was in tears, I couldn’t cope with it
in January I came out of hospital and I stayed with my parents
for a while, but I was spending all my time in bed and my parents
said ‘we can’t help you, what can we do? We don’t
know anything about these problems, you’re staying in bed,
WE don’t think this is healthy’
were they having any contact with anybody that they could ask?]
it’s all confidential, you see, because mental health is
[Q - Sure,
but if you’d said that you didn’t mind sharing stuff
never asked me
was this long ago?]
This was 11
years ago, I’ve been ill for 11 years, I’ve been on
medication 11 years So then my parents wanted me to move into
a hostel, because they thought they’d help me more, and
that was the right decision, I came to [hostel] and I spent 10
months here, and I was high as a kite for 10 months on sulperide
.. I think my major illness is basically depression – they
did tell me I was bipolar at one stage, manic depression, they
put me on lithium, but while I was on lithium and while I was
on sulperide, I was high as a kite, I was rushing round –
I was on sulperide for a couple of months or maybe a year or so,
and then they put me on lithium […] I came off sulperide
a couple of times and I felt like I was going to crash, I phoned
up all the helplines, I said ‘what’s happening? I’m
either going to crash in the police station or I’m going
to crash in the sea or I’m just going to start a fight with
somebody’, I was panicking, and they said ‘well, get
straight back on your meds’ […] I tried to come off
without any advice, because I still believed that I didn’t
need any of this shit and I didn’t want it [..] you can’t
just come off it, it has this adverse effect – see, what
happens is when you’re on medication, that’s your
ticket to be able to use the mental health services, if you’re
not on medication, well then you haven’t got a problem,
it’s like your meal ticket, once you’re on meds, then
you got the hospital, you got [CMHT], you got the GPs, you got
psychiatric counsellors and all that at your disposal, cause you’re
on meds, they look at you as if you’re a service user, if
you know what I mean
what’s your attitude now to medication?]
well I still
don’t like it but I’ve had to accept it – maybe
it has saved my life, I don’t know .. I’m on clopixol
at the moment, and olanzopine tablets .. I don’t know what
they’re actually for .. so I lived at [hostel] , I was high
as a kite for 10 months, I had a few girlfriends .. and then what
happened – I decided that I didn’t want to be ill
any more, so I started creating and saying ‘look, I don’t
want this stuff, I’m coming off it’ .. I was under
[consultant A), then I went under [consultant B] .. and I got
involved with the police, I did all sorts of amazing, fantastic,
good fun things! […] I had a lot of fun, but what happened
was we had a big meeting at [CMHT] and [consultant B] said ‘you’ve
got no signs of mental illness’, and I said ‘right,
that’s it! I’m coming off all my meds’ –
she said ‘we don’t advise that, come off it slowly’,
I said ‘look, I either need it or I don’t need it,
you just told me I don’t need it, so I’m going to
do what’s called cold turkey and I’m coming straight
off all this shit’ .. for a month, maybe even two months,
I went along fine, I got a little flat .. but then all of a sudden
it caught up with me and I ended up back at my GP, and he said
‘I think you’re going psychotic’ – I think
he told me to go on lithium then – no he didn’t, he
told me to go back on sulperide and I just got worse, so I ended
up moving myself back into hospital, then they said I was bipolar,
I went onto lithium, and I hated that, I said I’m not manic
depressive, I don’t want all this shit, but they ground
me down again, they made me submit to them, and I went onto lithium
it was a condition that I couldn’t live at [hostel] if I
wasn’t taking medication .. I lived in bed and breakfast
for about three months .. I was homeless for two weeks, I lived
on the streets, my parents were told not to take me in .. they
totally rejected me .. the hospital staff said ‘don’t
take him in, because it wouldn’t be to any of our benefits’
I rejected them and they rejected me – I didn’t want
their help […] I think the social worker came to visit me
when I was on the unit before they chucked me out and said ‘look,
can I offer you anything?’, I said ‘look, I don’t
want this, I don’t want it’, I just wanted to get
my life back, cause I believe that I’m a regular guy and
I always have believed I’m a regular guy .. and I never
wanted all these drugs […] but that’s how they dealt
with it – I’ve actually found Jesus through it, but
that’s another story! [laughs] I found faith! I found Jesus!
.. yeah, cause I’m a born-again Christian, right, and that
wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t gone this way
I actually said to one doctor ‘I want [consultant B] to
be the wooden leg to prop up the puddle that I’m standing
in!’ [laughs] […] it’s amazing, when you’re
ill you can make things rhyme and everything, unusual things,
your mind really speeds up […] you can talk a hundred miles
an hour and everybody can relate to you and you have them laughing
and crying within seconds, it’s amazing, it’s really
good fun – but it’s not actually healthy, a lot of
people say it is actually very sad .. but it can be exciting and
fun as well
I believe that I’m probably at my most well that I’ve
ever been in my life now .. […] when I was a teenager, I
was fully well, but I was unstable […] now, I feel like
I’ve experienced a lot of life, I’m more stable as
a person now, and also they’ve reduced my medication by
about 15 times – I’m on 15 times less now than I was
on four years ago .. and I’m hoping, praise to Jesus, god
help me, that I can make a full recovery, that’s what I’m
hoping […] I might have to be on medication for the rest
of my life, I don’t know yet, it’s too early to say
what’s helped you most to recover?]
all the staff, all the staff in the hospital, [hostel], the staff
here - talking to well people is the most important thing –
although you can talk to anybody, but if you choose to talk to
ill people, you can’t guarantee the right response, I’ve
always thought to myself, if I need to talk over a problem, find
somebody who’s well and talk it through – talking’s
the best therapy in the world, I believe
I’m hoping to get my life back on track now, in fact at
this very moment I’ve been living out of [hostel] for two
weeks, I’m trying to live independent, and seeing how it’s
going .. and if it works out for me and for my landlord, then
I might move out permanently […] I’m trying to make
progress and get my life back together again, and to come back
here [he hostel]would be quite frightening, because I want to
get out of here
the mental health service is wonderful – you know, at times
I was scared of falling through the net, and you wonder whether
some people DO fall through the net, I don’t know, but like
I’ve actually written it down before, they even gave me
a toothbrush in hospital, a toothbrush! – there was nothing
that they didn’t provide, they provided everything, and
it was wonderful, and it gives you belief in human nature –
so it was really good, it’s been a really valuable experience,
I wouldn’t change this breakdown for the world .. like they
say, god teaches you more through difficult times than he does
through good times .. and I asked Jesus into my life when I was
in the extra care unit, locked up, in the psychiatric unit –
I came across a book called ‘Write with God’ [?] by
John Blanchard and I asked Jesus into my life, and from that moment
– I was thirty years old exactly – I saw this chart,
like this big tick in front of me, and at the bottom I was aged
thirty, and from thirty onwards it went up, and I really believe
that that has been a vision which god has given me for my future
mental health .. because from the age of thirty - I’m now
thirty-seven – I believe that my mental health’s been
getting better and better and better
a lot of that has been to do with your faith?]
yeah, it has,
it’s got me through, without that – who knows, I might
not have made it without Jesus, you know, some people DON’T
make it – I actually tried to take my own life at one point
[…] it was a real serious attempt […] I tried two
or three times, then I gave up […] and it didn’t happen,
and I believe Jesus saved my life […] there was a turning-point
in my life, and the best day of my life was the day I asked Jesus
into my life, I really believe that .. but I gave up my attempt
at suicide, they put me on anti-depressants for a couple of weeks,
because I told them what I’d tried to do
are there any things you’d have liked to see happen that
I’ve really got a lot of faith in the ways .. cause I was
in when it was Edith Morgan [former inpatient unit], I haven’t
been in the new unit – I liked Edith Morgan, it was a big
open-plan, you could see everybody, that’s what I liked
about it, it was a big social place, whereas now it’s all
divided into rooms, and I think you miss that interaction, cause
I’m one of these people that likes to be talking all the
time, you know, if people’ll listen to me, I like chit-chat,
and I think that’s healthy
have you used any day centres?]
used [day centre] – at one point I was going there every
single day for about three years […] I don’t like
the way it’s run any more because they have groups on all
the time .. they’re not open like they used to be, you can
only drop in three days a week .. and I don’t think people
really use that art stuff in a way, you know .. I think the idea
is to shift it from just a place where you go and drink coffee
to a place where you actually integrate into life, that’s
the idea, isn’t it, they’re trying to re-habilitate
you more – I preferred it when you could just drop in
like it, but maybe it’s given me space to heal myself ..
I don’t know, when I was on a lot of medication –
I used to be on clopixol three fifty a week, now I’m on
clopixol seventy-five a month, and that has made a total difference
to me, cause when I was on three fifty a week, which I was on
for four whole years, I was like a zombie, I was at ground level,
you know, I was so deeply depressed and deeply troubled all the
time .. those were the hardest years of my life and I’ll
never forget them, they were really hard years .. I lived in Cornwall
for a little while, [consultant 2] put me in Cornwall, she thought
I could do with a fresh start, but my life’s here in [town],
so I came back, cause this is where all my friends are, this is
my life, you know? .. so I ran away from [town in Cornwall], and
I came back to [town], put myself in hospital for a couple of
weeks, and then eventually they found [landlord?] to take me ..
but I was like a vegetable for four years, I really was […]
all my friends thought I’d had a stroke, that’s how
bad I looked
and what part of that was the illness, and what part was the medication?]
know, and I never will know .. it’s been suggested to me
that I was never mentally ill, but I wouldn’t want to say
that .. well, you never know with these things, do you, once your
medication comes into play, you never know what’s what …
and for many years, it was difficult to think, is this me or is
this the medication? .. but I’m just going to have to put
my faith in the doctors and say ‘look, you made the right
choice’ .. because I’m still alive today, maybe I
wouldn’t have made it on my own .. maybe I’d have
jumped off a cliff or something, I don’t know .. so, like
I say, although they gave me the medication which I DIDN’T
want, they also gave me the support which I DID use .. it was
a package deal, which is what I was trying to say earlier –
it’s a package deal, you do get the support, so, if you
can put up with the medication, the support’s there, and
if it’s god’s will, you will get through it and you
will make a recovery
[Q re care
they do do
care plans here in [hostel] .. but I’ve never really been
into it, I’ve always wanted to do my own thing .. I sit
down, I go through the care plan, we agree on everything, and
then I go out the door and do exactly what I want to do anyway!
[laughs] .. I’ve always tried to follow my own aspirations
in life […] I think [the care plan’s] constructive,
but I haven’t really given it a lot of thought, because
I’ve been promoting my book, writing my book, doing my paintings,
my music .. I spend a lot of time walking up and down the town,
which I enjoy because I meet lots of people – I’ve
lived here all my life, so I know a few people, and I find walking
up and down town one of the best constructive ways of spending
my time .. but it CAN be a bit monotonous at times, and now I
want to spend time living again after all these years
Jesus into my Life.
At the age of 29, I found two pieces of literature: 'Journey into
Life', by Norman Warren. & 'Right with God', by John Blanchard.
They both describe the 'Sinners Prayer', the prayer of asking
Jesus into ones life, to be saved by Jesus & to recieve his
blessing & eternal life in heaven. The prayer goes like this:
- come into my life as my saviour to cleanse me, as my lord to
control me & my friend to be with me now & forever, &
thankyou for dying on the cross to save me from my sin, Please
help me to serve you in complete obiedience from this day onwards.
I prayed this
prayer, 'The Sinners Prayer' right on my thirtieth birthday &
this was & is the best day of my life because of this.
I had a vision
then, that my mental health would improve from that very moment
onwards. & within two weeks of saying this prayer, my mind
was flooded with thoughts about my future & what i am going
to do with the rest of my life. & this included : Writing
a book, making a film, becoming a minister, & working as a
'Public Relations' individual.
Now, I have
written that book, & made a DVD, jackannory style from the
book. I have six voluntary jobs all toward the public relations
that i want to do: Including:
Good mental Health
Equality for disabled People
Homes for the Homelass
I now live
on my own at Castle Circus, town centre Torquay, in Devon.
Now that i
I have five
titles which i have published and which are available to order
in any good book shop, including WHSmith & Ottakars, they
Lovers' a feel good novelette
'My Art, a Book of Paintings'
'The Best Day of My Life is Today' , my Autobiography.
'A Public Relationship' notes toward a novelette
'The House of Books' notes toward a novelette
I have six voluntary jobs, including:
I lead a 'Christian
Talk' group, once a week at a drop in centre, which i founded,
& have been running for eight months
I am a mental health service user advocate, & help to teach
mental health workers how to do their job , by educating them
I am on the Patient & Public involvement forum, promoting
good mental health in Devon
I work for Oxfam, in their charity shop, on the till & in
the front of the shop
I work for The coalition of Disabled People, filling out disability
living allowance application forms for clients
I work for 'Vocal, citizens advocacy', helping people socially
& befreinding, etc
I support the Homeless charity: The langley House Trust.
I see my step
son each week, sometimes a couple of times each week.
I go to Central
methodist church each week, where the minister is called Glyn.
I have read
'The Lions Childrens Bible', by Pat Alexander, fourty times
I have read,
'The Hoy Bible' new international version, completely, once, in
my thirty-ninth year. I have read 'The New Testament, three times.
I have read 'The Psalms' & 'Proverbs', about ten times.
I have read
'Right with God', by John Blanchard, twenty- ,two times.
I have read:
'Explaining Prayer', by Joyce Huggett, twelve times.
I am a member
of : The Leaders of Worship, & Preachers Trust.
I have aspirations
of studying, & qualifying to become a 'Local Preacher', &
if i am successful, & if it is Gods Will for me, then i have
aspirations of going on to study, & qualify, to be a Mothodist
I have Aspirations
of becoming a 'Public Relations' individual, promoting the six
areas that i am interested in.
I have aspirations
to write for newspapers, - local & National.
I would, if
it is Gods will, like to get married & have a family ; but
also , if it is Gods will, i shall remain single?
I always want
to have my home base in Torquay, even if i work at other places
from time, to time.
The best day
of my life, really is : the day that i asked Jesus into my life.
Maybe i will go on to explain why i think this is true for me,
in my own individual life.
have assigned me my portion
& my cup, you have made my lot secure.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in
pleasant places, surely i have a delightful
I will rest
in peace, because you will not
abandon me to the grave.
You have shown
me the path of life.
I love my
family dearly, dear God, please keep them & love them , &
bless them with a place in heaven for eternity when the time comes,
& inspire them into your will. & me also, & indeed
Aikido – The Art of Peace
I have practiced
Aikido for twenty years, & I have achieved ‘Blue Belt’
I have aspirations of achieving the ‘Dan’ grade.
with many sensei’s : Ken, Eric, John, Danny, & Phil.
I like the Ki-Aikido, style. I like practicing in Phils class
because he has a coffee break half way through the session, &
this suites my personality, other wise two hours is to intensive.
of Aikido, is to promote peace between people. Some Christians
say that it is not a Christian & acceptable thing to practice
– I think that they only see it as fighting. But I think
that Aikido is infact a blessing from God. This is a little bit
controversial. Aikido promotes Love, peace, & good will between
people. It has very high ethical motivations, To dissipate an
attackers aggression in a peaceful way, without harming the attacker
where possible. It is also very good for your health, & you
do not have to be that fit or strong to practice it – women
are often better at Aikido than men, because they are more relaxed.
I Love Aikido,
& will like to share with you, my love of Aikido….
Writing for newspapers
In 1999, I
was the first swimmer, who dived into the sea at Paignton beach
, the Boxing day dip. I had my photo taken in my swimming trunks
& peaked hat with a little boy who wore a wetsuit. We appeare
in the Herald Express newspaper, with our names etc
2005, I had a readers letter published In Herald Express , titled:
‘The Best Day of My Life…’.
On 23rd December
2006, I was featured in the Herald Express, the article written
by Laura Dale : titled:
‘Ken Founds Bay Support Group’.
In 2006, Nov
& Dec, I appeared in photos, & on ‘Spotlight’
news, & on the Radio, as part of publicity around the closure
of watcombe Hall – for people with mental health problems.
Christian Talk group
I have founded
& led the Christian Talk group, at the Cool House in Torquay.
We meet every Thursday, & have now been meeting each week
for eight months.
prepare an openning prayer before each meeting beforehand. then
i open the meeting with this prayer. then we talk socially, each
of us bring our own agenda to the group. we try to minister to
each other & share our own faith & experiences with each
other. We talk about anything that is on our minds & sometimes
pray for each other - things that someone especially want us to
pray about, such as ourselves, & our family, health issues
etc. We try to support eachother mentally & emotionally.
Then we read
a passage from the Bible, such as, from : The Psalms, & proverbs.
Sometimes from the Sermon on the Mount, About the life of Jesus,
& his words from the New Tesament, or from Romans, & Corinthians,
We share the
prayer that Jesus taught us : Our Father...
Then we pray
for the world, & people of the world, & for our loved
ones & ourselves etc.
we pray : The sinners prayer
Then we sing
normally two Hymns, from : Mission Praise etc.
we get between : three, to six, to nine people in the group. We
have had visiting christians in the group, including an Anglican
Minister, & others etc
This is a
really exciting opportunity for us all. So thank you God &
Jesus Christ for this opportunity : The Christian Talk group.
Mental Health, service user Advocate
I help to
teach Mental Health, nurses & proffessionals, how to do their
job - by relating to them my own jurney through mental illness
& mental health - to my own recovery.
I take part
as an advocate. This is normally hosted by Janet or Pennie. We
meet at a venue, such as Exeter hospital, Wonford, or at Langdon
hospital, Dawlish, or at Cool House, Torquay. Sometimes hosted
are about twenty, student nurses, & some psychiatrists, &
psycologists, & admin staff. I thay all sit in a circle. I
then talk for about twenty minuites, about my journey through
mental health - what worked for me, & my recovery etc. I try
to assert how Jesus has helped me in my recovery, & good Doctoring,
& nursing etc. Especially i try to emphasise how 'Talking'
is one of the major things that have helped me - & i expect
also probably being on the right medication, though i cannot asses
this myself . Taking good advice from Doctors, nurses & care
staff is all very important to recovery.
I have been an advocte for two years, & been ivoved in about
six or seven student courses.
Oxfam Voluntary work
I work at
Oxfam charity shop in St Marychurch, Torquay.
I work at front of shop, on the till. I worked first with manager:
job, & now with manager: Donna. I love the work at Oxfam.
I do four hours on a Friday afternoon every week, & have been
doing it for about eight months now. They say : Four hours in
Oxfam work is the equivalent to planting forty-two fruit trees
Coalition of Disabled People Volunteer
I did two
training courses at Exeter, to learn about Benefits etc - Government
benefits: as training prior to working for the Coalition. Then
Mickey taught me & trained me with clients, how to fill out:
Disability Living Allowance forms. I now see one client each week
on a Tuesday, & assist them & fill out their Disability
Living Allowance forms. It takes about two hours to fill out one
form. I enjoy doing this, i must have helped about ten clients
now , over a period of a few months.
Vocal, citizen’s advocacy.
I have trained,
& got a certificate to become a 'Vocal' advocate. I have been
teamed up with two clients. I have been doing this work now for
three years. I help clients by offering them time & friendship,
& try to help also with other daily skills etc.
Patient & Public Involvement in health forum: Commission.
I help to
promote good health care in Devon, with this Government organisation.
I have been involved in promoting the forums work at Torbay Hospital
etc such as with the hand washing campaign, etc. we meet about
once a month. I am now specialising in the Good Mental health
branch of the organisation, Led by Ben, & Jacqueline. We meet
at various venues all over Devon.
The Langley House Trust Homeless Charity
As a Volunteer:
to provide accommodation and support for homeless people.
Living as a Bachelor
I have now
been living on my own since December 2005.
I live at : Croft Court, Abbey Road, Torquay, in Devon. I am very
happy living on my own. My family support me & visit &
help me. My friends visit me here. I have had dinner parties here,
Lyndon visits me a couple of times each week. So thank you God,
in Jesus name, Amen.
Local Preacher and Methodist Church Minister
I became a member of Central Church. Reverend Glyn Millington
accepted me as a member of Central Church on Easter Sunday, 2006.
My whole family was present at the Church, when Glyn anointed
my head with oil, & made me a member, & gave me a Holy
Bible, as a seremonial gift. At the front of the church on the
I made this
Testimony of my own personal faith, i said:
The best day
of my life is not the day that i get married; the best day of
my life is the day that i asked Jesus into my life.
asked Jesus into my life right on my thirtieth birthday. So thankyou
Dear God i
pray that my family, mum, dad, & both my sisters, & Lyndon,
& all our families will be saved, & come to live in Heaven
with you Jesus when our lives are complete - in fact i pray this
for every person, in Jesus name, Amen.
My First Girlfriends
I met my first
proper - official - girlfriend when i was age fourteen, at Starbase,
disco. Her name is Donna . We used to meet each week, at Starbase,
& we met at Paignton, where she lived. Her friend came along
with us also. We used to meet at the Park, in Paignton, &
we used to walk around holding hands. Donna is still a friend
of mine even now. Donna has a very special place in my heart &
thoughts. Dear God Please bless Donna.
I had a girlfriend
called: Phylis, from Audly Park school.
Phylis came to my parents house with me.
I went out
with Janette , also from Audly Park school. I was friends with
Camilla, of Croft Lodge school.
I was friends
with Louise, of , Westlands school. Louise came to my parents
house with me.
In my teens,
i went out for many months with Kym . Kym & myself went out
with each other on & off for a couple of years. We used to
meet, also with Garri & Lucy, at the weekends. We all used
to go to Lasers Disco at the harbourside. We also went to Kyms
house in Brixham etc. And Kym came to my parents house.
I dated Mellanie,
& we used to meet at 400 club. I was friends with Rachel,
of Girls Grammar school, we used to meet at Starbase, & i
went to her house. I dated Sam, & Anna-marie, of Dawlish -
she wanted to become a Police constable. I dated a white south-African
named: Kate, & went to her house at Bishopsteighnton. I went
out with Nicky B.
I dated a
sweedish girl: Lill-Ruth. We met when she holidayed here in the
I dated a
German girl all somertime, named Henrietta. Henrietta Used to
visit me at my parents house. I used to take us out in my Vauxhall
Viva car, also with Tim & his girlfriend. Henrietta &
myself used to go out in Paignton, & also to the Hidaway club
in Torquay. We dated for about three months etc.
I dated Michell,
of Audley Park school. I was friends with Tracey, who worked at
: T.S.B. bank. I was friends with Janice, at 400 club. I visited
Sue, at her house, in Shirburn road. I dated Tina, & Jacky.
I dated a
skin head called: Debbie, who i met at a day centre.
Lisa . visited
me at my parents house, I met Lisa . at Hidaway night club.
me at my parents house, i met Mandy at Doodles night club.
Madelene, at her flat. I was friends with Barbara, who i met at
Stephanie B. at her flat in Ellacombe. We met at Hospital.
I lived with
Julie & her son for five years, at Parkfield road, in Upton,
Torquay. Julie & Myself met at Hideaway night club when we
were both aged Twenty-one. Julie lived with me at my parents house,
then we moved together to Parkfield Road. Then Julie gave birth
to her son: Lyndon, who is registered surname is mine : Harris.
I have done Paintings of Julie & her son Lyndon. Also i have
done a painting: Alive Garden, The place where we lived in Parkfield
me at Parkview. I met Sarah at The Valbonne night club when i
was out with Kevin. Sarah came to Parkview with me.
I dated Catherine
(Kay) . everyday for ten months, when i was living at Parkview.
Me & Kay have remained good friends now for ten years. I have
created two Oil Paintings: Portraits of Kay.
dated Angela (Angie) for a couple of months. When i was living
at SurreyHaven. We used to go cycling together. I used to visit
her at her flat.
While at :
Parkview, i dated Gina . for five months, & we used to visit
each other. Gina & myself visited Dartmouth, & we went
to London together, We went for meals at restaurants etc &
took Lyndon with us to the Tajmahal etc. Gina & myself have
remained good friends ever since. I have done two portraits of
In 2006, I
dated: Karen . for six months. Karen used to visit me, & we
went to Rainbow Hotel singles night together. I have done a painting
I dated : Alison for six months. Alison is a very lovely girl
& has a nice personality & is nice to be with. Alison
used to visit me at home, & i went to her flat. I have known
Alison for twelve years. I have done a painting of Alison.
When at school, i had a Sunday Paper-round. I used to start at
about seven am in the morning for my local 'five-ways' paper shop.
When at college.
I had a Saturday Gardenning job. I worked for Mike P. at: Meadfoot,
i used to work for about four hours at mid day. I used to cycle
all the way there & back - it gave me some beer money for
the Saturday night out with my friends.
I used to
deliver the 'Weekender' newspapers down behind the Police station,
on a saturday. once a week - it took about three hours each time.
I worked for
Baldock, Benns & Heighway, chartered Architects, in castle
circus, Torquay, for about five years - which is what my qualifications
For BBH, i
used to help to carry out on-site surveys :building & land-scape
surveys. I used to do drawings :As existing; feasibility development
drawings; planning drawings; & building regulations drawings.
etc & construction drawings.
I worked for
Johnsons newspaper wholesalers for six months; collecting the
Times newspapers & packing them for local distribution.
I worked as
delivery, lorry driver for Frank H Mann, delivering fruit &
Veg in Torbay, & as far as Kingsbridge & Barnstable. I
started work as early as four am. This was so that i could study
A levels at college during the day etc.
I worked two
day a week with Mark, selling Popular Books to business, i did
this for eighteen months.
I worked at
, The Showboat, amusement arcade for two weeks.
I worked as
swimming pool lifeguard at The Imperial Hotel for one weekend.
I worked as
a telephone salesman at Frank H Mann , for six months - taking
orders etc for pre-packed vegetables etc.
I worked at
McDonnalds for two weeks, as Grill Cheif, until i left of my own
I had a work
placement as a Hospital Porter for two months, at Torbay Hospital.
I am now an
Author, i have written four books, & produced a book of paintings
& am working on musical plays, & have recorded my own
I have seven
Voluntary Jobs, each one, a couple of hours each week, or each
I intend to
get back to work as soon as is considered reasonable by my Doctor,
& my health permits, And according to opportunity etc, As
my aspirations inspire me, Amen.
My Fortieth Birthday Party
I held my Fortieth Birthday Party at The English Riviera International
Conference Centre, in Torquay.
I had eighty
guests, who celebrated this birthday with me. The Star guest was
My G.P. Doctor
Nicholas F. & his wife attended. Doctor Nicholas F. is the
best Doctor in the whole world!
I had all
my family: Mum, Dad, Shirly, & Pamela, & Daniel. My uncles
& Aunties, & Cousin.
I had three
church ministers, Glyn , Dave, & Peter.
I had lots
of school & college friends & their wives & children:
Garri M. Allen H. Tim H. James H. Steven J. Colin S. Jamie C.
& others Tina D. Tina W. Sharon C. & others.
I had many
Christian friends also.
was from : Twelve till four in the afternoon. My sister : Shirley
laid on a stretch limousine, at the end of the afternoon, &
me, & lyndon, & six other friends went all over Torquay
for an hour.
I made a Speach,
& we had a buffet. I believe that it was a very successful
perty : at least for me it was.
Pat, also attended, which made it a special day . also.
I made a speach
at about one-forty-five. I gave Mum a bunch of flowers, &
a bottle of wine to dad, & gave presents also to my sisters.
myelf share the same birthday. On our actual birthday, when Lyndon
was eighteen, we went to Chaplins pub at Castle Circus & had
a celebration, birthday drink together! So thankyou God, Amen.
Hundred & third Birthday
God willing - And by the Grace of God go I :
I intend to
have my one-hundred-&-third birthday party at : The English
Riviera International Conference Centre.
Indeed i may
wish to have all my tenth (decade) parties at the : Riviera Centre
- from now on.
party, really was a special present to my family, Mum, Dad, Lyndon,
& Shirley, Pamela.
I pray that
And that God also
will bless us all
and keep us,
all the days of our life
and for eternity
The best day
of my life is:
The Day that I asked Jesus
Into my life!
I would just
like to share this thought with you...
I saw this
written in the sand at Torre Abbey beach in Torquay, when the
tide was out:
G O D
Dear God, I pray that you will bless us all with good : Mental,
physical, emotional, sexual, & Spiritual health, all the days
of our lives, & that we will all come to live with you in
Heaven when our lives are complete, In Jesus name , Thankyou,
please bless me. Please fulfil your Purpose in my life. Please
help me not to turn to the left or to the right, but to stay on
track for the full realisation of your perfect plan & will
for my life, in Jesus name, Amen.
Dear God Please
Fulfil, your purpose for my life, nothing less, nothing more,
nothing else, but your complete will & purpose for my life,
in Jesus name, Amen.
please let us all live , good , wholesome, healthy, happy, fulfilling,
full, Born-again, Christian lives, & let us all live to our
natural life span & all come to live with you in Heaven when
our lives are complete, for eternity with you, according to your
good will for our lives & the life of the world, in Jesus
name, thankyou, Amen.
please write your word upon our hearts, put your word upon our
lips. in Jesus name, Amen.
please write your word upon my heart, put your word upon my lips.
in Jesus name, Amen.
God, for your wonderful and rich blessings to each of us, everyday
of our lives. Thank you even for your gift of our faith in your
dear and precious son, Christ Jesus, Amen. Thank you for our salvation
given to us by Jesus’ life, Amen.
us to share the love of Jesus with each other, please help us
to encourage each other in our faith in Jesus, and in our Christian
lives, individually and together, Amen.
God Willing, By the Grace of God:
I have aspirations to become a Public Relations Individual.
six areas that I wish to promote in the capacity of Public Relations,
• Good Mental Health
• Famine Relief
• Equality for Disabled People
• Homes for the Homeless
• Space Aviation
Really I am
interested in working in this area in the present. I am involved
in voluntary jobs, right now, which are hopefully opening doors
in to the areas of public relations that I hope to work in.
I wish to start Public Relations at the age of seventy. At present
I am busy: writing my books etc… and following my aspirations
to becoming a Christian and a Methodist Church Minister - however
unrealistic these aspirations may be - By the Grace of God, go
When I officially
begin working as a Public Relations Individual, I intend - may
operate under the business name of: "Jo...Public", public
relations service; I chose this business name, and had business
cards printed with this name on them, even at mine age of twenty-nine.
When I do
get into Public Relations as a career and Vocation - I intend
to actively work in this area right up until the day I drop -
I intend not to retire.
I have spent
fourteen years out of work - due to sickness. I intend to work,
now and for the rest of my life. Because Public Relations is not
physically demanding, I don’t see any reason why I cannot
carry on working until my life is complete
So thank you
God, according to your will, dear Christ Jesus.
I breakfast with my parents on a monday. Mum & myself , swim
at swim Torquay pool - we do twenty lengths. Then , Mum , Dad,
& myself Lunch together.
On a Friday,
i breakfast with my parents: Mum, & Dad.
I talk with
mum on the phone nearly everyday, & sometimes Dad.
I talk with
Shirley & Pamela, a couple of times each week.
I talk on
the phone to Lyndon, most days. Lyndon visits me once or twice
I see my friend
Kevin about once or twice a week, & he prints & makes
my books: Festival Lovers, etc.