you to Jesus and to God
for being with me throughout all the
days of my life
you to Kevin Harry Lock
for working with me
and for helping me to produce
thank you God, Amen.
Kevin Harry Lock
Flat 3, 29, Morgan Avenue,
Torquay, Devon, England.
The Vision of: Jesse
& his dreams
living with this girl for five years. She said that her baby belonged
to him. But he had a blood test done & found that he was not
the babies father. He stayed in the relationship, but over some
years, because of the lie, the relationship destroyed his mental
health, & he went into hospital suffering stress & depression.
When he was
locked up in the extra-care secure unit in the psychiatric unit
in hospital. He experienced despair.
upon a book, introducing the reader to Jesus & God for the
very first time. It mentioned the sinners prayer, the prayer which
saves a person from their sin & grants eternal life in heaven
- if the reader makes the prayer their own : Which Jesse did.
Then in the
course of two weeks from Jesse's prayer, his mind was filled with
thoughts about his future. Jesse believed these thoughts were
a blessing from God, because of his becoming a 'Borne Again Christian'
& asking Jesus into his life. These are the dreams & 'Vision'
that he would enjoy good mental & physical health for the
duration of the rest of his life. His vision was: he would write
a book & make a film. He Would get married to a girl that
he had met at church & that they would have three wonderful
God loving children, two girls & a boy. He dreamed that he
would be the best British Prime-minister that the world had ever
had from age fifty to age seventy. He dreamed that he would bring
Aikido martial art to the world as a sixth Dan . He asked God
that he would love God & bring glory to Gods name throughout
the whole of his life, to beyond his death. He dreamed that he
would be a successful 'Public Relations' individual ; promoting
all good causes in the world from age seventy to age one-hundred
& three. He dreamed that he would enjoy a seperate relation-ship
together with his first love, & that she would live with him
till they both reached age one-hundred & three together, &
that they would both come to live in heaven when their lives are
that his step son would become a Consultant Psychiatrist get Married
& have a family & be successful in all he does.
This is Jesse's
Vision for the future.
was fantastic. Jesse believed that the vision was God inspired.
It was such a big , fantastic vision for the future. The vision
was at times scary to Jesse because it was so fantastic &
maybe a little to big for reality. But the vision helped &
made Jesse very happy & positive. Jesse was excited &
fullfilled it made him feel so good to have this vision &
in life starts off with a Vision, or a thought. So here is Jesse's
vision & thought for the future. So now look to the future.
Jesse's girlfriend left him because of his 'mental Health illness'
label, because of his admittance to hospital - it scared her off.
Jesse bumped into his first love, Lorraine, in a pub. She come
up to him & said: "smile then", then she kissed
him , & said, "i still love you, i always will".
lorraine lived together for five years. On reflection, Jesse always
looked back on these years as some of the happiest years of his
life - even though it was this relationship, with the baby as
well, which took him into mental distress & nearly destroyed
Lorraine, were the same age as each other. They met in a night
club, when they were twenty-one. Jesse took Lorraine home with
him. Jesse fell immedu#iately in love with Lorraine. She was everything
that he wasn't. She was confident, bubbley, an extrovert, sexy,
animated, & fun.
Over the course
of their five year relationship, Jesse, & Lorraine enjoyed
a wonderful & very full relationship. They enjoyed a full
sexual-love relationship. It was so good & so deep, i believe
for both of them. Right from the beginning of their relationship,
they enjoyed love making. In the second week of meeting, Jesse
said to Lorraine, "You can have my baby if you want it".
Three weeks later, Lorraine said, "I am pregnant". Lorraine,
gave no hint to Jesse that the baby was not his. Jesse just assumed
that he was the father. In fact Lorraine concieved the child two
weeks before she met Jessie.
When the baby,
Dylan, was six months old, Jesse had a blood test done & found
that he was not the father. From this revelation, & because
they all stayed in their relationship together, Jesse's mental
health gradually deteriorated.
& Lorraine were first together, when she was newly pregnant.
Their love-making whas pure & healthy,& fulfilling, it
was so truely healthy & full, & good, & wonderfull.
This experience had a wonderful effect on Jesse for the rest of
Let me relate
this poem to you, out of the experience of Jesse, & Lorraine,
which Jesse penned years later:
looked so long into a girl's eyes - as i did with you
We just sat
- gazing into each others eyes for what must have been a minuite
We did not
blink or look away
We did not talk or move
We just gazed - consumed into each others eyes
looked so long into a girls eye's as i did with you
Nobody - not
& you have the prettiest eyes when they reflect
the sunlight in the summer
It feels so
it feels so good
we share together when we did look into each others eyes
that Jesse penned, inspired by Lorraine is this:
in Love, I can Tell a Love Story.
I had a woman
We would talk together
we would walk together
we would dance together
we would sleep together
we would fight together
we would make love together
we would laugh together
I've been in love, i can tell a love story.
in the relationship which makes Jesse deeply happy is the knowledge
that they both gave their baby, Dylan, alot of love in his first
years, in these the most important years of any childs life. Both
Jesse & Lorraine gave Dylan alot of love.
was twenty-nine, he decided that he wanted to become a 'Public
Relations' individual. He had 'Jo...Public' business cards printed
he dreamed that he would have three children with his first love
Lorraine. He did ask Lorraine to marry him on three occasions
- but she said no. Jesse's doctor said that if he got friendly
with Lorraine again , he would have another massive 'Breakdown'.
So Jesse decided that he would like to meet a new girl.
to meet & marry a christian girl, a girl who would encourage
him in his christian life, & who he could encourage in the
same way. & have three children.
did still hold the dream that in the future he & Lorraine
would enjoy what he called 'a seperate relationship' together.
said that Jesse would meet the girl of his dreams at church.
to church each week from the time that he became a 'Born-Again'
christian at age thirty.
not lived his life yet, he is still only thirty-eight - who knows
what his future will be, but you know his dreams.
reads from his Bible. He read the Old Testament, & the New
Testament. He reads the Proverbs & the Psalms.
Jesse is a
born-again christian & so is Lorraine & his son , Dylan.
a born-again christian from reading these two peices of literature:
'Right With God' by John Blanchard, &
'Journey Into Life' by Norman Warren. He recommends these to everybody
he recommends these to everybody who is interested in becoming
the Bible. & agrees that the Bible is a living book &
that it talks into your life as you read it - Gods word.
the promise of the Bible:
'Delight yourself in the Lord, & He will give you the Desires
of your heart'.
says: " The best day of my life is not the day that i get
married, but the best day of my life is the day that i asked Jesus
into my life".